Friday, February 12, 2010
Leggy
Lara... wants to be able to wear this from American Apparel. Not sure about my feelings on it yet but I want to be able to wear it regardless. How amazing do your thighs have to be to go out in a thong and tights?
Update on food for today [technically Friday] and Thursday shortly.
I LOVE YOU 1:03 AM
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Beauty Queen of Only [Nineteen]
This was about a year and a half ago in one of the pageants I've done. [Ms. Planet Beach] I wasn't weighing myself here and around this time is when I started to slip up. I got so caught up in all the things I was doing and the excitement that I didn't maintain the obsession it takes to keep a certain amount of weight off. I was probably about 118.
This was about 6 months before the one above and I was probably close to my lowest weight here. [Oddly enough, I'm mixing icing for an Easter Bunny Gingerbread House which I of course ate none of.] I keep this picture even though everyone tells me I look deformed in it just because I love how thin my thighs were here. I don't think I even realized it at the time. And for some reason they were a lot tanner. I guess leg-wise this is sort of a goal for me.
After last post, ended up having broiled tilapia and lettuce with red wine vinegar. Plus a banana just now. A lot, yes but again not purge-worthy. Aiming for same or less tomorrow with a lot less liquid calorie intake hopefully.
More soon xoxo
I LOVE YOU 8:53 PM
Watch out boy she'll chew you up...
I'll save an introduction post for later. Suffice to say, there is a little about me in my profile for now for those of you I don't know. I'm not going to delve into the history of my addiction or disordered eating right at the moment although I may feel like it later. This blog was created as a necessity -- I feel the need to write about these things but it certainly doesn't belong in my "magazine" blog [Avant Debutante] about Fashion and Beauty and all that glitters... and I really don't even want it over-taking my personal blogs which I post dupes of on Livejournal and Xanga. So here it is. A journal solely for my food logs, withdrawls and all that good stuff.
First, I'll say that I have added CalorieCount.About.com to the tabs that open when I start internet explorer but it hasn't forced me to use it anymore often. That's certainly a goal. User name there -- avantdebutante although right at this moment it isn't allowing me to sign in. Also, Daily Plate account which is used even less. [TheDailyPlate.com; username - xoPrincessxo]
As for today, I had a can of tuna in water early this morning with just the juice from an empty pickle jar added because I was out of pickles. And a slice of raisin toast with [gasp!] a tiny amount of butter. Way too many glasses of tea but I've decided to ignore that for the moment. Liquids are always tough to give up for me. I drink all my calories.
So that's it for now. Expect updates later tonight, probably will update here a few times a day, much more than any of my other sites so if you are someone who gets motivation from that type of thing, I would definitely return.
Kisses, Lovelies!
I LOVE YOU 3:52 PM
Friday, April 18, 2008
baby still working at the club
testing
I LOVE YOU 12:05 PM